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everything will change. - what hurts the soul, my soul adores
no better than a beast upon all fours.

Date: 2010-03-10 00:37
Subject: everything will change.
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I don't know why it's so hard for me to believe that someone can love me as much as I love them--I've broken guys' hearts before, so technically I have evidence of someone loving me more than I love them. But no one has mattered as much as you do, and maybe that's why I just can't get over it, and why I can't help but cry over it. I think I'm just so relieved... I always wondered if someone as coquettish and silly as me would ever find what I constantly love to read about--and I truly believe that this time, I have.

Haha... in my most important times, I can only inadequately refer to fandom to convey how I feel. You know, the part in Chapter 39 of Kimi ni Todoke (spoilerzzzz) where she can only say 'I love you' over and over again, because she's finally realized that he's just a boy and she's just as much right to love him as anyone else? And afterwards, she tells Yano & Chizu that it was only '1/10th of what she really wanted to say.' That's how you make me feel. (Not like I could ever reference you to this, since you think it's all romantic drivel anyway haha.) I cried when I read it, because it made me remember what it was like to fall in love with you... and I treasure those moments more than most anything else in my life.

Thanks Bear. :')
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